Priceless J
Delete her number.

Stop ringing her. Stop messaging her. Stop making excuses to see her, to drop by her place.

Erase her name from memory. Remove yourself from her life, more completely than you would like but as completely as she deserves. Move on, so that you can allow her to also move on. When you close your eyes, you don’t get to see her face. Not anymore. You don’t get to think about her lips, the warm glow of her skin when she rests next to you, or how she squeezes your hand in her sleep. You are not allowed to remember the smell of her perfume, that she only drinks mint tea (with two dollops of honey), or that she loves you.

She loves you.

She has been in love with you for too long.

So, forget how she says your name. Forget how she calls your name. Forget how she screams your name. Forget that time you got sick and she stayed up with you all night, letting you lay your head in her lap and holding a cold compress to your forehead. Forget how her hair feels in your fingers. Forget how she looks in your sweatshirts.

Forget her.

Know only that she existed at one point in your life, but relinquish all hope that she could exist at another point — sometime in the future that you are unwilling to specify because you don’t know what you want. Yet. It is not fair for you to swoop in and out of her life as you choose. It is not fair for you to say that you are satisfied with “things as they are” and you will have time to “figure it out” later. Let her stop investing emotionally in you. Let her pour that love and care into the people who deserve her.

Don’t tell her that you think about her all the time. Don’t tell her that it bothers you to hear about her with other people, but that you’re willing to understand as long as she likes you more than them. Don’t tell her that this isn’t the right moment but that there will be a right moment. There is not going to be a right moment. She shouldn’t have to wait for the right moment.

Don’t tell her that you can’t handle ultimatums, that you don’t like the idea of finally adding finality to your relationship — whatever still remains of it.

What you are telling her is that you want to keep her on as an option, that you are taking her for granted, that you want to know she will be there, that you can depend on her at the end of the day. When you find that no one else has stuck around or that those who have are less interesting, less thoughtful, or less doggedly loyal to you.

Doggedly loyal to you.

That is what she has been to you, for you almost as long as you have known her: a constant emotional crutch, the guarantee of stability, a safety net while you reach out to grasp objects that sparkle and shine far greater than she does. All that glitters is not gold, haven’t you heard?

She is fire. You are ice, and you are afraid that her slow burn will smolder your cool, hard demeanor. That’s what has driven your decisions, your actions all along: fear. You are a coward. You are a hypocrite. You are terrified to let her go, but you are afraid she is too good for you, that she could drive you wild, that you would choke on her flames. That she is too much for you to handle right now.

Right now.

But if you choose not to love her now, you can’t choose to love her later.
Lauren Hooper  (via cats420)
Kool On The Low :*

Kool On The Low :*

#TBT #SophmoreYear #Phresh #Chillin I don’t give a finger in the middle ! #NeverHave #NeverWill

#TBT #SophmoreYear #Phresh #Chillin I don’t give a finger in the middle ! #NeverHave #NeverWill

You don’t often see me wearing a dress :) :* <3 #ByeBye2013 #Hello2014 #Dress #Vans #PlainNSimple #DontFeelGood #ButILookGood #ShitItsAllGood #MoneyGoodCreditGood #ZebraPrint #BlackNBrown #Gold

You don’t often see me wearing a dress :) :* <3 #ByeBye2013 #Hello2014 #Dress #Vans #PlainNSimple #DontFeelGood #ButILookGood #ShitItsAllGood #MoneyGoodCreditGood #ZebraPrint #BlackNBrown #Gold

Any bitch can spend time with you, roll a dime for you , cuff online with you, fuck and 69 with you&#8230;&#8230;but me I&#8217;m a ride with you , hold the 9 for you , on my grind with you , cops come and snatch us up I&#8217;m doin time with you, right hand on the bible, ima striaght lie for you♥ #OneNOnly #AN #RydaForYou  #LMP

Any bitch can spend time with you, roll a dime for you , cuff online with you, fuck and 69 with you……but me I’m a ride with you , hold the 9 for you , on my grind with you , cops come and snatch us up I’m doin time with you, right hand on the bible, ima striaght lie for you♥ #OneNOnly #AN #RydaForYou #LMP

Gym Flow #BallOut #BallIsLifre #BeenAMin #WorkingOnMe #FWM #ThisBallLife #UpNAtIt

Gym Flow #BallOut #BallIsLifre #BeenAMin #WorkingOnMe #FWM #ThisBallLife #UpNAtIt

when you approched me I thought it was a joke
but now I love you then I hate you baby you did me so cold
I made you my priority when I was an option to you
I gave in, stayed true, and was faithful to you.
I did all the things I did because I care about you
but being loyal is the only thing I wanted from you
I remember when I asked you “why you want to be with me? were you trying to use and abuse me?”
you told me “you wanted me to be your ride or die and that you wouldn’t do me like that” but then turned around and left the fuckin knife in my back.
this shit hurts but you know life goes on
I shared with you in my life MY most Precious Charm.
but you dont care that I cry, that I hurt, or that you scar’d me for life
and I cant beleive that I thought you were Mr.Right
yes right now im just finding peace and closure.
im accepting the fact that we’re done and we’re over.
I gave you my all and you took advantage of me in so many ways
but IM HERE and i’ll love you forever&always. <3
-EboniJenesha<3 #Original #Forever #Always
iikoolkiid:

Pac for Karl Kani

iikoolkiid:

Pac for Karl Kani

"A Perfect Smile Is More Appealing But Its Funny How Its Crooked Look At How Far I Done Got Without It." #OldToMe #NewToYall #GoodMfcknMoanin #ONTHESET

"A Perfect Smile Is More Appealing But Its Funny How Its Crooked Look At How Far I Done Got Without It." #OldToMe #NewToYall #GoodMfcknMoanin #ONTHESET

The Last Bitch iTrusted Betrayed Me. The Last Nigga iTrusted Played Me. #Today #Thanksgiving #Red #Black #Baige #ImBack #BarstowBound.

The Last Bitch iTrusted Betrayed Me. The Last Nigga iTrusted Played Me. #Today #Thanksgiving #Red #Black #Baige #ImBack #BarstowBound.

Happy Thanksgiving &lt;3

Happy Thanksgiving <3

My Babies &lt;3 @_babylump_  and Gavin &lt;3&#160;
-Photo Credit&#160;: @eboni_jenesha :* ;) #LMP

My Babies <3 @_babylump_ and Gavin <3 
-Photo Credit : @eboni_jenesha :* ;) #LMP

woke up this morning and this is all I could think about because I went to sleep feeling some type of way. #BallIsLife #NewBio #ClearTheMind #IDoThisShit #Lifeless #WithoutBallin 
-im out this season be back next season so #BeAware #ONTHESET

woke up this morning and this is all I could think about because I went to sleep feeling some type of way. #BallIsLife #NewBio #ClearTheMind #IDoThisShit #Lifeless #WithoutBallin
-im out this season be back next season so #BeAware #ONTHESET

#RP #RS #Crazy #AL #YouKnowWassup

#RP #RS #Crazy #AL #YouKnowWassup